Thursday, May 10, 2007

skirts and summer

Today was a marvelous day! I knew it was going to be a warm one, so I decided to take Johnna outside first thing after breakfast. I showered and decided to wear a skirt and blue baby-doll styled tank top. I felt so feminine and wonderful! I did feel a little self-concious...just because I really haven't been keeping up with the running (argh - night times are SO busy with getting a tiny one to sleep and then picking up around the house!) I'd love to stick with it because I am just a little...unhappy with my body image. I think if I at least knew I was trying, I'd feel a lot better.

But regardless, it was nice to just embrace the fact that I am, in fact, a girl. So I dressed like one and felt even more so like one...in addition to being someone's mother, someone's pretty mother. I felt pretty. It was nice for a change!

Around 10:00, I took Johnna over to the shady park. Just as we were walking up the path, John came up the hill and around the corner in the car. He went home, changed, and came over to the park as well. It was so nice to doing something like that as a whole family, under the shady canopy of looming old trees...and the hovering old sun.

When we got home, John showered, and then I made lunch. The baby and her daddy took naps in their beds - nice two hour naps. I wrote out bills (argh, but ahhh.......) and then we headed off to do some shopping. Johnna needed a new sunhat, I needed facial cleanser and mouthwash, and we needed groceries. But dinner had to fit in there as well, so we went out for pizza. Oh! And John and Johnna let me pick out a book from Barnes and Noble for mother's day. I found a book on stitching, so I went for that one.

I'm so excited to try! Tomorrow I hope to finally get out to the garage and clean up that old desk! I think I know of a great place to put it.

Oh yeah, one quick thing. I wore my skirt and tank top out shopping, and, as we were leaving the pizza place, some icky younger bar men were sitting outside and whistled at me. (Gross!) I suspected they whistled at me, but then they said: "oh check out that sweet car!"

I just didn't even bother turning around. But they were staring and laughing as I put Johnna into her carseat. Soon afterward, as we were driving away, John said to me: "Did you hear those guys whistle at you?"

I played dumb. "Did they whistle at me?"

"Yeah, until they saw me! Then they made up something about a car. But I didn't see any cool cars around. So I turned around and gave them a mean look. Then one of them mumbled 'Oh shit!'"

Although kind of flattering (that sort of thing never happens or has happened to me, it was still icky! I was, afterall, holding my little girl AND walking with my husband! I only want affection from those two!

Melissa at 12:08 AM

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